As a survivor of domestic violence, I have experienced trauma. In fact, I'm still in recovery. I have made the mistake that because I've experienced trauma that I'm an expert on the subject. This couldn't be further from the truth. When I sat down here at my desk to write this post, I was expecting to whip out a brilliant post that would help everyone who reads it. Instead, I was introduced to my reality and it wasn't what I was expecting: I am not above or beyond my trauma. I am not bigger than it. I am co-existing with it. It's been four years since its onset from a single, horrific event (acute trauma), and I just want it to be over, to be gone, and to get back to my 'normal'. I don't know if I'll ever get back to my 'normal' because I have been forever changed, but I can say that I am becoming stronger every day. Some days are better than others. I think the most significant part in my recovery at this point is recognizing my authenticity and my vulnerability. In other words, my humanness. I've lived my entire life being something I'm not: a super hero. I've not realized until this moment that, in its own beautiful and surprising way, trauma has freed me from this. Ironically, it is allowing me to be my real, human self. I always strive to look for the silver lining in everything. I guess I just found the silver lining in my trauma. So, while my experience with trauma is simply that...my experience, I can and will share what I have learned as a healer having a personal experience and leave the expertise to the academics.