When we think of transformation, a butterfly is often the image that comes to mind. Before it is transformed, the butterfly goes through a period of darkness, the resting phase. This is when the caterpillar hides itself inside a chrysalis and privately and magically changes from a caterpillar into a butterfly.
My personal journey of surviving domestic violence has very much taken a similar course as that of a butterfly. I withdrew from life to heal from trauma and abuse. Today, I declare my liberation from my past, once and for all. Today, I emerge from my pupa and spread my wings. It's been a long journey.
With this emergence comes a new awareness of myself. What I find is that I am the same me, and I am a different me. I am awake. My consciousness has expanded. I am more mindful and more aware, and this awareness extends beyond my external world and into my inner world.
My perception of a butterfly's life is that of ease and beauty. Unlike the butterfly, my life is still hard work. I don't take elevation for granted. I don't take the magic for granted. I have a lot of work ahead of me to BECOME the very best me I can be, to be the real me, and to live life with the purest of heart. Like the butterfly, BEAUTY is present everywhere in my life, and it is magnificent.
The work before me lies in synergistically transforming all the areas of my life to create my dream life, one that is aligned with only the real me. Only by being pure to the real me, can I achieve my dreams. I see that. I feel that. I experience that. Seeing and feeling, synergistically, are components of experience. EXPERIENCE is how I learn; it's what I'm here for.
Last night I had a dream. In it, I was in the front passenger seat of a car being driven by my dear friend and Reiki teacher. As I sat there, the head of a black horse appeared before me. I reached out and was surprised that I was able to touch it as if it was physically in the car with us. I asked my dear friend why I was able to touch it and she said, "It's the future." THE FUTURE IS NOW, and it's in my hands.
So, welcome to my future; my dream. I don't know what lies ahead. All I do is put one foot in front of the other and take one day at a time, and I float all along the way. I listen to my body. I keep my mind and body relaxed. I feel my emotions. I'm aware of my conscious thoughts. I follow the magnetic pull, my intuition, and guidance from the cosmos, and listen to nature. I pay attention to my sleep dreams. I listen to the language of the universe. Then, I take time to make the right choice.
WITH THIS BLOG, I THEE WED.
In the spirit of the movie "Julie & Julia", I hereby challenge myself to post daily for the next year as I move forward into my future. This is going to be a huge undertaking for me and an even bigger commitment, but I think it will be a very powerful tool for my personal growth and, hopefully, inspirational to someone who actually might read my blog. (Note to self: If this blog reaches just one person, you're a success.)
All areas of my life have a lot of room for growth, and my challenges are many and varied.
So, why do I do this? Why do I want to commit myself to changing my life and blogging about it? My answer: Why not? I love to write. I love to share. I love helping others. I love challenging myself. I love striving for my potential. Doing things that I love - that's the definition of my dream life.
I have no plan or outline for this blog. I'm driven by inspiration. However, I have compartmentalized my life into four different categories: 1) Health; 2) Relationships; 3) Career; and 4) Time/Money. I will share my experiences, struggles and successes in these areas as I move forward into my future. Again, I don't know what waits for me at the end of the next 364 days. Whatever it is, it will be. It will be as a result of the choices I have made. In making my choices, it will be imperative that I discern between creating new and recreating old. Am I making choices that are in alignment with the new, or are my choices consistent with the past? What do my choices bring me? Good? Not so good? Bad? All of the above? We shall see.
I've had an amazing journey. If I could do it all over again, there are many things I would have done differently. May I be all the wiser this time 'round.
With that, I say goodnight.
My name is Teresea Carson. I am a Licensed Massage Therapist in Washington, USA. I specialize in trauma recovery and women's wellness. I have a bachelor's degree in psychology and am entering graduate school in 2018 for a Master's degree in Transpersonal Psychology with a specialization in Transformative Life Coaching. I am a domestic violence survivor and mother of 4.